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| Yep. I'm alive. I've had a lot of changes in life recently. So here's a quick runthrough of what's going on in life for Randy at the moment.
I moved to a really really nice residential area of Pittsburgh, I am single once again and want to keep it that way for a while, I'm still working my animation job, I super sprained my ankle at the Arts Festival 2 weekends ago, I've been keeping up with practicing the flute and learning Japanese, I bought my first ELLE magazine last weekend (Yes, I know. I feel just as guilty about it), I've been taking time to illustrate and enjoy my love of art as much as I can lately, I finally have my own furnished bedroom with AWESOME new furniture and bedding, and I'm just takin' it easy for a few days.
IKEA HAPPENS TODAYYYY! Yay. I love that store. Jeremiah (my roommate) and I are most likely going this afternoon for the big sale that's going on. Amazingness happens in that place. So, yeah, that's all I'm typing for now. Take care, kids! Always. 
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| So, yeah, I know I never use this anymore. I kinda stopped posting because it's more or less just for me. I don't really care if anybody reads my random blogs and leaves comments. I just feel compelled to post what I'm feeling right now. It's about what today is and what it means to me. So if you'd rather not read about Kim or bring up any lost emotions I'd suggest you just browse away from this page.
It always catches me by surprise. I somehow think that since it's been a fair amount of time I'll just keep moving on with life and not pay any attention to it. I was on the phone earlier with Josh, and when I hung up briefly so that he could change some settings on my phone I realized it was 12:01, March 3rd. I don't know why I get so worked up over all this. I have no right to get worked up in comparison to someone such as Kelsey, Aaron, or any of her friends that had been there for her for a lot longer than I was. I mean I never even knew Kim until middle school and didn't start hanging out with her a ton outside of school until years later.
Xanga always makes me think of her. It reminds me a lot of Kelsey, too. Those two were always such avid xanga'ers, and they both kinda talked me into getting this account. I remember spending time as soon as I would get home from school and sitting down just to read through everyone's xangas to see what was going on with everyone. I miss those days. I very rarely even log on here anymore. Lots of mixed emotions. I hate that this has become a place to come whine essentially. I know that's what I'm doing: whining and sulking. So instead of that maybe I should turn this around and focus on the things about Kim that make me happy.
Anytime I hear someone let out a cackling laugh I automatically envision her prancing around and letting out that "Nee hee hee hee hee" that was so unique to her. I can always imagine that and immediately start to smile and laugh along with the memory. She was always so weird, but I think that's one thing that I loved so much about her. Probably some of my fondest memories of her were at the Christmas Formal my senior year.
That was the first one I'd been to probably since 9th grade. She was in that really awkward situation with Mike and Aaron, and I decided to step in and keep things in check. Kim decided it would be fun to crawl under the table, and she motioned for us to follow. So I crawled under, and then Aaron came shortly afterwards. We were laughing and grabbing at people's legs as they came up to the table. It was like being kids again. Hahahaha. So great. And we took a picture with her camera under there, but I recall it didn't turn out that great. I really wish I could see it again. Then we left the main dance hall at the convention center and went to sit in the lobby. Kim was taking the antenna of her cell phone and jamming it up her nose. Haha. She was talking about how much it tickled when you barely put it up your nostril and tickled the hairs in your nose. So then she was sitting there sticking this cell phone antenna up all our noses. Only Kim. Haha. And then there was the time where we were standing in the little theater at school sniffing eachother's armpits. Hahaha.
I could go on and on with all the fun/funny stories and memories I had the joy of experiencing with her, but I think that's good enough for me. I feel good leaving this entry on a happier note and not completely crying my eyes out. So the last thing I have to say is to Kim: I miss you, I can't imagine what my life would be like without having had you in it, and I thank you for all the inspiration and wonderful memories you helped create in my life. I hope someday we meet again. Whether it's in Heaven or in another life or whatever may happen after life ends, I really do hope our paths cross. All the <3's in the world to you and to everyone. I miss you Logan kids and wish we wouldn't have lost touch like we have.
Take care and spread love across the world,
Randel, the original Handy Randy
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| Love is confusing... Especially when the other person is confused. And, of course, I end up being the one that misreads all the signals and gets hurt. Though it's not totally over. Only time will tell, so I just need to be patient and deal with this situation with the utmost care. I'm not going to make any more moves, I'm not going to hope for more than friendship, I'm just going to let things come to me and hope for the best.
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| So how about I had one of the strangest but most awesome dreams last night? I felt I needed to post this not only to share it with others but also to remind myself before I forget (you know how quickly dreams fade from your mind). All right, so I was at this summer camp type of place, and there were a bunch of people there. Like all roughly around my age or older. And among the people there were also famous people including my most favorite Canadian musician/actor, Tyler Kyte. It was an awesome dream right then and there. Haha. But then it gets even better. I was walking with the group to one of the lodges, and they were doing some kind of group activity inside that looked more like something you'd do in a classroom. So I decided to keep from doing it I was going to pull some kind of prank. So I threw this balloon full of slimy stuff on the ground and had it splatter on some of the girls. And they said that to be fair I should have some of it dumped on me, too. So they dumped it on my head, and it ran all down my back. and I was like, "Ughhhh!!!! I feel like a giant block of Spam!! This is so gross..." So then we get over to the lodge, and all of them go in but me and a few other guys, one of which being Tyler Kyte. So he comes over to me, and he's like, "Haha. That slime thing was awesome, dude. That totally rocked." And then instead of going into the lodge we went over to a place that had a porch swing made of like cedar and sat on it, and his friends stood around talking nearby. So then we start swinging, and he looks over at me and says, "Y'know, me and my friends are in a band. You should check us out sometime. I think you'd like our sound." To which I replied, "Oh, I listen to your music myspace like everyday. Haha. Yes, it's dorky, but I love your music." And then he said something about a goofy cartoon he draws from time to time, so I reply, "You know, I go to school for animation. Y'know like cartoons and stuff." He looks at me and laughs. Then he says, "Oh yeah? That's pretty cool, dude." Then I look away for a bit, and when I look back about half a minute later he's gone. And in his place Drew Barrymore is sitting there. She was like, "Let's dance. Come on! Get up and come with me." But instead of dancing we get on a fourwheeler, and I look at her confused to say, "Ummm... I thought we were going to dance. And won't we get in trouble for doing this?" She smiles and says, "Come on. You need a little adventure in your life, and I never get hurt. We'll be fine." So somehow the place is coated in snow, and she speeds off while I'm flying in the air barely holding onto her torso and then pops a wheelie. Then she gets thrown off the front, and I hop off the back. And the fourwheeler slows to a stop just before hitting her. When we get to eachother we realize that we're surrounded by a pack of fierce snow wolves who are very unhappy with us disturbing their territory. We look off to the distance and see a cottage and try to make our way there without getting attacked. Drew made it to the door, but I stood behind and braced myself as one of the wolves got close. The wolf sunk its teeth into my right wrist, and I started to scream like a little girl. It hurt SO bad. But then a cat ran out of the cottage and scared the wolves away. Haha. Then I think I passed out from shock and woke up to find myself in bed with Drew Barrymore. Tyler Kyte walks in as I'm coming to consciousness, and he's like, "What's going on here?! You and Drew???" To which I sit up quickly and say, "No! No! No!!! It's not what it looks like! I was attacked, and I passed out to find myself here." He walks out, and I chase after him. And I see that they're having a pool party outside the room I was in. As I'm chasing after him, I end up falling in the pool. But when I resurface I don't see him. So I swim over to the other end of the pool and see a man standing there talking to Alexz Johnson (whom if you didn't know is also a Canadian musican/actress. She and Tyler Kyte both work together on the TV show Instant Star). I just looked at her in awe, and then Tyler walks over and offers to help me out of the pool. And that's all I remember. It was SUCH a fun/weird dream. I wish I remembered everything about it, but that's pretty much all of it in a nutshell.
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| I never thought I'd be updating this thing ever again, but I guess I was wrong. So there's a LOT going on right now. I'm intensely busy trying to get my finals out of the way. Graduation/portfolio review is also this Thursday, and I want to go to that since my friend Meg is graduating. So that will be fun I suppose. Sure, I'll probably be freaking out the entire time I'm there wondering if I'm going to have enough time to get my massive project done in time for Friday morning. In other news, dating drama is over for the moment. Good old Randy has decided to play the single card and keep it in play as long as possible. I don't need to deal with all the crap of being in a relationship when I have so much stuff to do in my schoolwork. And I'm perfectly okay with that.  Oh, and also a good note: taxes are dumb. And so is the effin' FAFSA. I hate filling out that junk, and I can't even finish it until I file my taxes (which I've never had to do before now). Bah. I can't stand responsibility sometimes. Haha. Anyway, I guess I'm going to hop along and make some lunch before heading out to school to work all day. I'd love to hear from all you wonderful people that actually end up reading this. Leave a comment or hit me up on AIM. Take care, kids. <3
Always
Randel
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